Growing up my father had a strange sense of humor…

Growing up my father had a strange sense of humor and thought it was fun to tell me things like “you’re ugly” “you’re fat” and comment on the food I ate or if I dressed up he had to put me down instead of complimenting me. When I was a child, I thought it was an inside joke between us, always sending these insults back and forth with each other. But as I got older the harsh words started to stick and became the voice in my head every step of every day. 
The words you tell yourself become increasingly true the longer you say them, making it like an act of conditioning. A dog can be conditioned to sit when told to sit like a human can be conditioned to feel disgust every time they look at themselves. But that also means there is hope to retrain your mind into better thoughts. If we can wake up everyday and say “I hate myself” then we can learn to wake up and say “I will learn to love myself”. That one thought, that one statement, can change everything. The saying “fake it til you make it” plays a huge part in this. We don’t have to feel like what we are saying is true, we just have to pretend it is. And one day there will be that “oh” moment where the mirror no longer reflects flaws and hatred, but instead glows beauty and self love! It’s all about perspective of the mind. This is only an example but it works with other things too! Saying “I will have a good day” or “I will try my best today” can have a large impact as well. 
Don’t let your house become dark and painful to live in because life is long and it’s worth fixing your house so the rest of your time here is the best it can be, both for the sake of you and everyone you love. 💜
With all my love 

-Lanie 

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