This concept is so essential to recovery. The road to growth can be rocky and not very well paved. We can trip and stumble continually because it is so wild and rough. But it gets more tame as time goes on and as we learn. When I was in the thick of my OCD I didn’t really know what was happening to me. I didn’t think there was anything wrong with me, I figured this was just the way I was supposed to be, or I wondered if I was being punished for how bad of a person I was. I didn’t know that something in my brain chemistry was actually holding me back and keeping me from knowing that I could reject the lies being fed to me and could start to live freely. So I tried to do the best I could, by pushing through and fighting in my brain. I was miserable, but I made it. It’s been 8 years since I was diagnosed, and I actually just went off of my medication last year. Somedays I can feel the lies creeping back in but I know now that I don’t have to live in that misery anymore. I push through everyday to accomplish my goals and dreams because I believe that there is a bright and free life in store for me and my mental illness can’t hold me back.
I think it’s important to note that “doing your best” doesn’t always mean it’s a good job. Sometimes we are so weak that our “best” is very sloppy and jagged. But the point is that you are TRYING and that is always the goal- to keep moving towards growth. But once you start to get your bearings around you, once the path starts to clear up a little bit, take care that you don’t go backwards. You know where you’ve been and the trials that you came from; you know better now. Go and BE better, because this world needs your best self to carry on.
Xoxo, Cindy 💜