I think that this is the perfect time in my life for me to be writing about this. I don’t know if you’ve ever read the book “All The Bright Places” by Jennifer Niven, but if you have, then you’ll understand who Theodore is and how he constantly changes his appearance and personality in the hopes of finding someone he would be proud to be and live with for the rest of his life. I didn’t realize until I read that book that I was doing the exact same thing. Throughout high school I tried out the popular girl, the athletic girl, the smart girl, the good girl, the slutty girl, the happy girl, the sad girl, the girl that was everyone’s friend, the shy girl, the party girl, the talented girl, the strange girl, the broken girl, the scared girl, the driven girl, and finally… I wrapped it up with the lonely girl. It wasn’t until I was in Europe that I really figured out who I was, or at least who I aspired to be. I mean, at that point I had already had an idea of aspects of myself that I really liked from my previous “costumes” I had tried on. The more I’ve thought about it, the more I’ve started to realize that the things I’ve liked over the years aren’t just things that I’ve liked, but the things that make me who I am, and, when I was in Europe, the thing that I added most to my personality was confidence. I feel like since I’ve been back, I’ve been a little stronger with my beliefs and a little more proud of my choices and accomplishments. I guess what I’m trying to say is that “There is no statute of limitations on starting over. Be a phoenix. Be ashes. Burn down. Resurrect. Let go of the idea that you must always be who you have always been.” There is more to you than that. 💜


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