My life consists of plenty of people who will tell me the are there for me, but where are they during the hardest times? We all have those people, right? Where were you when I wanted to hurt myself? Where were you when I was crying myself to sleep at night? Where were you when I felt as though there was no one? There must be some reason I felt that way. Sure, I didn’t text you right away or call you. But when you hadn’t heard from me in months, you’d think since you were so there for me, you would at least see what’s up. I used to be very butt-hurt about these things. I would think about it all the time and wonder why you weren’t there or how much easier the situation would’ve been if I would’ve had you to come over or to spend the night with me. That would’ve kept me from doing so many thing that I regret. Now that I’m older and am experiencing life, I got over it. After many years of trying to forgive, I have forgiven you. Because now I know that I can do anything and make it through anything, and this time I won’t be looking for you or wondering where you are. Because I can do it by myself. So don’t you dare try and tell me I can’t!

-Ariana 💜

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